Helpful arrives in different ways. An acquaintance may share an uncomfortable honesty. Long days and short nights might drain our physical bodies, test our mental limits. A sudden plane trip may carry us away from those we know and that which we love.
Life is this cool thing that happens and then we experience it. We have control over certain parts and a lot of absence of control. The aging process teaches us some of this. As we live through time, our bodies build and destroy themselves many times over. Societies rise and fall. Some of us gain multiple perspectives through observation and acceptance, and we strive to make the world a better place.
For some of us, there is an immediacy and powerful spontaneity that happens early. Life situations are such that particular traits are honed more than others, and we develop unique skills. Hardship and misfortune run rampant in our lives because that's how life can be when you differ from the pack.
Insights and preferences shift, though. What was really important at one time can seem different now. We start out with certain ideas and efforts, and then things happen. Socioeconomic factors affect whether we learn, travel, or otherwise develop diversity in our lives. We choose or do not choose to raise children. Society evolves and devolves around us, and we get to decide whether we will remain engaged with life.
It's been a whirlwind at a snail's pace the way things have changed since I started writing here. My job, my romantic partner, my friendships. I actually have friends now! Whaaat. I'll tell ya, it's been a lot of not expecting anything and then also learning how to expect certain things. If that sounds confusing, it's because it is. It's way fucking confusing, and it's exactly how life is sometimes.
For example, I have a romantic interest who sometimes maybe never again acts as a sexual partner. I would have not seen myself being ok with this situation in years past, and I'm just going with what feels safe and fun right now. No, I don't love the instability. I do like his intellect, though, and his wit. His face and body are quite nice, too. Heh. For serious, though -- it's not easy peasy for me to genuinely like someone enough to get sexy these days. He must be politically aware and have a fucking opinion about the way the world is right now. People want to identify as middle of the road and "not political," which is fine for them. It's just that if I hear a potential partner utter "not political," I am immediately not interested.
Well hello there.