The situations in which I feel powerless indicate the most need of true power.
When I consider the times in which my body felt weaker than another's body; when my mind felt less-than compared with another's mind; when my spirit appeared to need more help than another's spirit, these situations illustrate vulnerability.
In this existence, it's common to take advantage of another's vulnerability. Sometimes people praise this action by saying something like, "The other person had it coming to him/her."
Another form of this type of thought is, "I should have known better." Typically, someone says this about situations that went in a direction that prefaced uncomfortable emotions.
These sentences, "The other person had it coming to him/her," and "I should have known better," indicate powerlessness and the areas that are in need of true power.
True power is what every person seeks and already contains.
I experienced rape a few years ago. The mindset that filled my brain then scares me now. I experienced an older girl molest me when I was about five years old. The mindset that filled my brain then... that one took me a long time to figure out: I flat-out didn't know what was happening. Someone took advantage of my ignorance, and it's possible she didn't truly know what she was doing either.
How could I not know? How could it have been prevented? Did I even try to prevent it? Could I communicate with anyone? Did I have anyone with whom to communicate? So many questions. It's good to answer these questions, and it's also good to note that I didn't have control in those moments. Times exist when control does not exist. Sometimes horrible things happen that make no sense and we continue to live and we don't know why and my belief is that it's still important to keep at it.
I'm glad I kept asking questions. It takes deep breaths sometimes to keep at it. There's a stereotype in this culture of a woman who talks too much or who is not polite and that being a bad thing. There are ways in which to discuss topics that are respectful of others, and it's important to continue to ask questions in a manner that values judiciousness for all people, including the self.
True power is breathing deep and being the person you believe yourself to be regardless of opinion of others.
Well hello there.