Sometimes reality feels overwhelming and the thought of our own blood might distract us from the sense of meaninglessness. Not to be morbid, but to observe blood in its own symbolism -- to watch my own symbolism on and around me, this is the stuff of some coping strategies.
The thing is that they're destructive strategies. We don't grow when we self-harm. We destroy growth. So when it gets really hard sometimes, it can help to learn other ways to soothe the emotions that arise. Like instead of a blade, we might be able to walk around the block a few times. Or we could grab an ice cube and hold it with a tight fist. Maybe take a warm bath or gently sip a cup of tea.
That said, my entire life is about to shift and I've been experiencing some self-harm thoughts. Someone very meaningful to me is preparing an exit. At first, I felt a lot of powerful emotions: confusion, sadness, helplessness. Some negative coping strategies flashed in my mind as the relationship began this recent end. And even then, it may not be a final end. For now, though, it is final for at least a while.
Life is confusing sometimes. May we find ways to care for ourselves and help ourselves past self-harm thoughts... talk with someone, create art, read poetry, observe nature and breathe into its beauty. May we picture an internal fountain of eternal compassion and allow its waters to soothe us.
Well hello there.